I'm impossible. Honestly. Seriously. Incredibly. impossible.
I don't transition well emotionally.
This hurts, and it hurts even more because I know I'm the only one it hurts for.
I've noticed that some can move on to the next thing with slippery, effortless ease
the next day
the next event
the next person
the next conversation
the next view
I watch this skill with awe and admiration.
I turn my back and look over my shoulder
watching whatever it is that I am already
I know that I'm physically removed from the place, the person, the...
but like a comet's tail
it clings to me and I to it, feeling it
drag on the air and keep me from slipping into the fast lane.
I feel the thing that is no longer here while seeing something completely new.
My heart has no idea what to do.
Luckily, I have been through this tunnel before and I happen to know that regardless of how entrenched I try to dig my heels in the clay of time's movement
I will come out the other side