Friday, June 19, 2009

Like Me

I am challenged by

myself

By choices and my reactions to them.
I am faced with acknowledging that despite
my ability to accept spiritual and intellectual truths...

like

meaning is not inherent, but determined
attachment is a choice that can lead to pain
my feelings are born out of my own personal choices
i can change the way i feel by questioning and changing the way

i think.

Despite my ability to spiritually and intellectually accept these truths,
I struggle to apply them to the situations that arise in my life.

I made a choice.
I acted on that choice because i wanted to experience that choice.
That choice was tethered to an attachment I have.
I don't regret the choice,

and
the choice has
consequences

just like all choices do.

And though all is well, I moved myself into a space where applying
the things that I "believe" is called for.

I find it interesting that as a child, or even as a young adult, one
assumes that at some point in adulthood, we'll "get it". We'll have

ARRIVED.

Get it,
meaning....

It will all be clear
there will be nothing left to learn
we'll make no more mistakes
we'll have "reached" our goals

We sort of live like those things are true, don't we? And, though we
as
individuals
may realize with clarity
that

nothing is clear
there is so much left to learn
we make mistakes
we haven't reached our goals

we act as though we're the "shizzle",
wrapping ourselves in invisible
protective super-hero capes that keep everyone else from knowing that
we are the

ONLY ONE

who...

struggles
wishes
yearns
aches
isolates
fails
.

So, here, I admit to you that I know that like me, you are human.
Like me, you wish you were better at it.
Like me, you know you could reach higher.
Like me, you get tired.
Like me, sometimes it seems like a little too much.

And like me,
you forget just how perfect it really is.

Thanks
for
the
reminder.