By choices and my reactions to them.
I am faced with acknowledging that despite
my ability to accept spiritual and intellectual truths...
meaning is not inherent, but determined
attachment is a choice that can lead to pain
my feelings are born out of my own personal choices
i can change the way i feel by questioning and changing the way
Despite my ability to spiritually and intellectually accept these truths,
I struggle to apply them to the situations that arise in my life.
I made a choice.
I acted on that choice because i wanted to experience that choice.
That choice was tethered to an attachment I have.
I don't regret the choice,
the choice has
just like all choices do.
And though all is well, I moved myself into a space where applying
the things that I "believe" is called for.
I find it interesting that as a child, or even as a young adult, one
assumes that at some point in adulthood, we'll "get it". We'll have
It will all be clear
there will be nothing left to learn
we'll make no more mistakes
we'll have "reached" our goals
We sort of live like those things are true, don't we? And, though we
may realize with clarity
nothing is clear
there is so much left to learn
we make mistakes
we haven't reached our goals
we act as though we're the "shizzle",
wrapping ourselves in invisible
protective super-hero capes that keep everyone else from knowing that
we are the
So, here, I admit to you that I know that like me, you are human.
Like me, you wish you were better at it.
Like me, you know you could reach higher.
Like me, you get tired.
Like me, sometimes it seems like a little too much.
And like me,
you forget just how perfect it really is.