i am struggling with the reluctance to really face things that
are uncomfortable to face.
namely the responsibility that i have when i am feeling out of sorts.
still... though i know much.....
i show up in a day knowing very little about
how to be clear emotionally.
Feeling like making someone else responsible
for my state
Wanting to flail.
There is a still small voice
reminding me of what i know.
what i claim.
what i say.
There is only me at this control panel.
It is glorious choice
that has me feeling
whatever way I am feeling.
If I am feeling sad
It is only me that ordered that plate.
And what is on the plate?
Sometimes so hard to swallow.